Motherhood + Spiritual Discipline pt. 2 Show Notes
Picking up from Pt. 1, Mrs. Suzie finishes telling us her story about growing her faith during her young motherhood years. She also answers some questions for us in this part of the podcast.
“They knew the Bible and I didn’t— and so one of the elders, because it was dual eldership type of church, not a one pastor type of person, I remember this man, Devon Frank, the man who wrote, “On to Full Stature.” He was speaking from the book of Samuel, and he was going into a great deal of detail, and then all of a sudden he says, ‘ Well, and you know his story.’ “ And I had the guts. I raised my hand and I go, ‘ I don't know the story. So unless you tell the story that you're talking about, I will not understand the rest of what you've got to say.’
And so he stopped, and he told me the story, and afterwards he came to speak to me and said, "You need to read the Bible. You'll need to read the Bible from beginning to end, over and over. So you'll understand it all in context.”
I did not do what he said. I could hardly handle it. My ex-husband was very abusive and he would take my Bible when he saw it and he would throw it in the fireplace. Put the alley in the incinerator and destroy it. And so the only way I could get another Bible was if I walked, got on a bus, went down to Woolworth's and bought one for a dollar. And of course, it was only King James.
So I was very much encouraged. And I did do this in those early days to memorize. I was so committed to memory because I thought, well, what if he does that to my Bible again? And I've got to remember what I read so that I can read in my head anytime. So I start out with verses, and then I met a young woman who was a nurse, and she was a missionary with the Navigators. I don't know if you know about them. And she gave me 120 little cards to memorize. And she's my accountability partner, and I still know her to this day. And she's the one who gave me my car. And, Anyway, Sylvia helped me to learn the methodology of memory, scripture, memory. And now I'm grateful that I did learn the King James. Because as the years have grown forward, I'm not at all King James only person. I love all the versions. I love it any way I can get it. But sticking to one version helped me to have these triggers. if somebody can be talking and just use one word and it will remind me of a scripture which will remind me of like 20 or 25 more. And so it can stay rolling in my mind. And that's a concept that I've never heard, talked about. But that's what they were doing. These older men and women of God. The other thing is that, in that little group, that little church we didn't have overheads and we did not have songbooks or hymn books or anything. Everybody would just be in a circle, all the little hippies and the old people, and they would. Somebody would say, “Psalm 51, verse ten.” So we'd get our Bibles because we're all at the same thing and we'd look like, ‘what does it say?’
I didn't know what it said. People had already begun singing, and the one guitar, a flute and the bongo drums were going. There was no anything else, no piano or anything. It's Acapulco. You know what I mean? And so this is how I was learning how to memorize scripture. I just said that randomly. It says create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me. That's what they were singing And so all throughout the book of Psalms you'll see these musical notes because that's how I was memorizing scripture. Here's another one. So I was singing The words and the tunes were going through my mind and I was memorizing scripture. I had a little children, so I would teach them to do this. I'd say, I want you to learn. 1Peter 17: 57. And so my youngest daughter, she's four years old. I told her what the verse was, wrote it on the board. She could read and she says, mommy, I think I got it like there's like two hours later because I got my song. And she had gone out in the backyard, gotten a branch, a piece of yarn, and made a fish out of construction paper with a paper clip. And she was going to demonstrate it. And so she went casting all my cares upon him, for he cared for me. First. Peter 57. I mean, this is what the how I was teaching them, and I was teaching him how to memorize the way I was in a childlike way, how I had learned, I remember my oldest one came up with so many songs, she learned how to read notes, and then she learned how to write what? I never learned this. She wanted to. How to write down the notes in the five stanza. And so she she made up so many. But, one of them was the Romans 10:17. “Faith comes by hearing, and hearing from the word of God.” Romans 10:17. And this was a common thing. I'm thinking of one from Proverbs. And it's kind of sound like a rap. She goes, “When my mother and my father forsake me. Send the Lord to take me up, when my mother and my father forsake me, that the Lord would take me up. Proverbs.” And I can't remember what it is right now. 12:7 or something like 27:10. That's what it is. Proverbs 27:10. To repeat it and walk around the house, you know, and so we can teach our children how to memorize in a way that is applicable to everyday life, and they will send back to us this fellowship between us and the Lord isn't just for that quiet time. It whoever is around us, our husband, our neighbor, and especially our children have, we can have a communion with them, teaching them what is being. It's going to go deep down in their hearts.
I was singing on the way here from think I was praying like, these disciplines are so important to incorporate into every day, whether we feel like it or not. You know, you're reading the word and that day it might just be kind of dry and you're thinking, I'm not getting too much out of this. My mouth feels like cotton. I'm not sure I could pray right now. I'm so exhausted. The baby got up so many times, but you're still going to open your Bible. And I was thinking about, the heavy burden I put on my shoulders in those early years that sometimes I think, oh, man, I didn't get any quiet time with the Lord, and my baby's about to be born so uncomfortable. And my, I hope that I can potty train the second one before this third one is born. And, you know, just, you know, the oldest one is getting into everything. And I just, Lord, I don't know, I was feeling like that, you know, and I was imagining that on the way here and returning, remember what that time was really like. Because of course, it's been many years. And this is the song which I know it by heart, but I'm looking to it anyway. It's, from Matthew 5, and I learned these from the hippie kids. And this is the Beatitudes. And this is how I memorize the Beatitudes. Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are they that mourn, for they shall be comforted. Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth. Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness, for they shall be filled. Blessed are the merciful, for they shall obtain mercy. Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God. Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called the children of God. Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are ye, when men show revile you, persecute you too, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely for my sake. Oh, rejoice and be exceedingly glad, for great is your reward in heaven. And then they always ended it with this calm. This is how we do it. When we get condemned about like I didn't spend enough time Come unto me, all ye that labor and are heavy laden. I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn of me. For I am me and lowly in heart. And you shall find rest for your souls. For my old is easy, and my burden is light. La la la la la la la la la la la la. I can still remember those little hippies singing that song. And I sang it to my children and they learned it. So if they ever hear even a little phrase or something reminds them, I know that, I know that it's in them and it can come. That gives me hope when I'm praying for them. And they're there in the world because they're in the world. my middle daughter, never that I know of made a real commitment to Christ. she's got two masters and a PhD and a very successful woman, but, she's not, unless she is. And she didn't tell me she's not seeking war. She's hiding and running. And, my youngest one is backslidden. But I know that my kids are rich in the word of God. And they had not escaped Him. And that gives me great confidence that at any given moment that they were to return, even for a second in their thinking to the Lord giving him a thought at all. I know that scriptures would come with it because of what I gave into them, from learning how to sing the word and memorizing scripture. And so I had this little book called that you have, and I use that the Bible and pictures for little eyes every day at nap time. And I had, Another book from the Scripture Bible Memory Association or something, and it was just the ABCs. And they had a scripture for each, a letter of the alphabet as I was teaching them. So a all have sinned and come short of the glory of God. B believe in the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved. See, children, obey your parents and Lord, for this is right. D depart from evil and do good. Eat. Even a child is known by his doings, whether its work be perfect and whether it be right. And I always explain the word perfect meaning growing up, maturing. So that's in them. And yet it provided me fellowship too, because they would speak it back to me. and I'm just a real big proponent of that.
One of the problems that this has caused, though, is that I am not just to be honest, I'm not the least bit too satisfied with the modern. I saw that a real old lady right now. But when the church experience sometimes is difficult for me, because I often am sitting there thinking what would happen if there were no electricity? Because we didn't have that. And so many times we were just meeting in a barn or by the side of a river or something. We weren't meeting where there was even electricity, there was just sunlight. I met at one church for a long time that was in a Boy Scout camp grounds, and it was the big mess hall, and we couldn't have had church on a rainy day. We had to use candles because we didn't have the money to. The church did not have the money. And solid young families to, pay some kind of electricity or anything. If it was cold outside, we were building a fire in the fireplace. We weren't. It was hot. We were using little hand fans, you know, and so there wasn't all this technology. I have, I have you can pray for me because I want to fellowship with other believers. No matter what age they are. But in that environment, how I feel. I never went to a rock concert in my life, but I've seen videos of it and people are screaming at each other trying to be heard. And I've been in a church so many times in a church service where even afterwards they keep the music going so loud, you cannot have fellowship with other people. There's it's so loud that you can't just have the flow. And I often think thoughts like, I know this doesn't have anything to do with what I was called to talk about today, but it's a thing that I have a difficulty with. It seems that the loud noise insulates me from my brothers and sisters, and I think, how can I be in one accord when I can't even speak to the person next to me because I'm insulated with all this noise and. How can I? I can hardly hear myself think, much less hear the still small voice. And so I find that part of modern Christianity in our culture and in our country at this time. I find it disturbing and distracting from my walk with God, and I often get more rattled and there's a dissatisfaction and a grieving in that environment. When I want to be. Not feeling all that. And so I struggle with it. And everything's when I was coming into the faith was, us young people revering, looking up to and honoring those that have gone before us in the faith and made this journey kind of like me having that. What is the mystery? How can they have so much of a grasp? How come? I don't have that.
I remember one time I was at a lady's house and I asked her that and she said because of what you asked me to talk about the disciplines, she said when you get up early and spend time alone with the Lord consistently and you read the word consistently, the word itself changes you and your character is built by fasting. Spending time in prayer. It isn't a matter of feeling. It's a matter of obeying. It's our response back to him by faith, believing not because I have a feeling I want to pray it will come. And she took a picture which I was going to bring. She took this glass pitcher and filled it up with water. And she said, this picture represents your character. But what if this picture had holes in it? As soon as I put the water in. The water would just leak back out. But what we want to do is. And she had a big bowl. She said, we want to pour what is poured into us. We can contain that. What he's poured into us with picture, which is our character, and we can pour that into our children in the world around us. But without something to contain, that living water, which is our character, that God's working on all the time, it's just it's just all over the place. There's not any direction, there's no holding. I'm like, wow. And I found out that so many times, just a simple little illustration. but there have been times when I get distracted just like everybody else. and it's been a long time since I've been that distracted, except for yesterday and the Lord, I said, oh, gosh. Kyrie asked me to come to her house, and the day's already, like, half over. And I haven't spent time alone with you, Lord. And I missed you. And I felt so frustrated with myself. And then that song came to me again. Come unto me. And don't put that heavy burden on yourself. Try to remember what it was like as a young mom when the baby was sick. Your husband was having a problem at work, and the little guy had just gotten into something and there was glass broken all before you had a chance to do a thing because you weren't feeling good. Remember that. And remember my grace. Remember my mercy, and I will find you. I will seek you out and you will respond. Because you do love me. You're my love is over you. The banner of love is flying over your heart.
And I think that me stressing about the disciplines is not the plan. That isn't what. It's not a law. It's all born of desire, right? And I'm like, somebody asked me recently, how would you describe your walk with the Lord? And I said, well, I'm just desperate, that's all. I'm just desperate. I'm desperate for God. And when I allow some other carer this world to fill that place up, there's one thing I really know how to do. I know how to overeat. That's a downfall for me. Over and over top. It all has to do with my mouth. The little rudder, you know, steering the ship, you know. And, so those are things that I'll talk to my husband about. You know. I just don't worry I guess I know. But, you know, just to be able to say it and talk about it, you know, and be. So what does that mean? Okay. Right. And so the Lord's just saying. I got you. But you're trying to fill your flesh up with something that only my spirit can satisfy. And it always reminds me of that. And it wouldn't matter what it is. I guess the big temptation now is the technology thing that just sucks you in so fast. It's like I just wanted to look up a word in the Bible, and here's this thing popping up from YouTube or whatever it is, you know? Yeah. Now all of a sudden, I got another pair of sneakers I didn't need. Right, right. I know. Yeah, I done this kind of thing, you know? the snares, the traps there. And as we approach the most exciting time, I believe, to be alive right now. I've heard people say, why would you want to bring a child into this world right now? You ever heard that? Yeah. What's your response? What do you say? I say for such a time as this, that. We were just talking about this like everybody thinks the good old days are our past.
My brother in law, he's like the good old. The good old days or whatever days God brings you into the world. And so right now, like, these are the good old days, because God has me here for this time. I'm like, okay, yeah, yeah. That's great. Okay. Just think what Paul wrote the words to the Romans. I love that book. What was going on? Nero was in charge. They were taking Christians and setting them aflame and using them as torches to light the Appian Way. And we're Christians being called. What were they doing while people were, you know, making their orgies? And there was, you know, babies were being born, they were throwing them onto the streets to die. And the Christians were rushing in, grabbing those babies. And making them disciples of Christ. And so the one of the things too, like just a little sideline on that, is that, I noticed when I lived in Durango, at every turn there was palm readers, shamans, crystal gazing, tarot card reading, witchcraft, every kind of evil on every side. Yeah. And it was such a clear line of demarcation between the precious and the vile. And if I was in any place by the train station and Walmart or wherever I was up at the ski lodge, didn't matter where I was.
If someone had the anointing of Jesus Christ ablaze within them, communing with them is still the same now. But it was so clear because the darkness was so dark. And it's just like I could be like a waitress in a I was for a while waiting tables and somebody come in the door. I didn't even see their face, and my spirit would leap up and I go somewhere. And is in my environment. Who is communing with Jesus? I know it. Where are they? Yeah, I'm sniffing it out, you know. Where are they? And it would happen. There would be an engagement. And that has been a big part of how God's done it with me. and so now when I came to the Bible belt, I was things the waters became kind of murky and muddy because no matter who I talk to about Jesus, they're like, oh, yeah, I'm safe. I'm safe. You know what I mean? Like everybody was safe but they had their high places. Yeah. That yoga thing. Just to be honest I mean some people are really. I've been to Bible studies where with young people, younger women you know they're babies and everything and they want to talk to me about the Enneagram.
They want and they don't know the source data. They don't know where that came from. They want to talk to me about yoga. And how they just love yoga. And they had to do their yoga, but they didn't have time to finish the study or whatever. But, you know, just everything was all these high places. Young moms. Yeah, I've been to more than I can count. I wish I didn't have to say this, but churches while we were looking for a church where, they were all right with all these things, that same sex attraction. Well, you know, I mean, some Christians and, you know, having people say I'm a homosexual Christian and I my answer to that, I actually had bold enough to say it. I said, well, I'm a lying Christian. Also steal I'm a stealing Christian. Could I say that. And so there's the actual conversation. So the young lady, she says well you're kind of in your face. I said, well you just tell me that you're a lesbian Christian. I said, so I'm telling you that that in the word is it is says God's word says it that son at you're going to identify yourself by your sense. So if I identify myself by a sin, then you think that's out of the box, right? And she she got Adam and she said, well, I was born this way. I said, I was born a sinner, too. Yeah. All the way back to Adam. There's been this we're all born into sin. and so just that simple explanation was foreign in a church setting. There's a women's bathroom where that conversation took place. So we're raising our kids in a realm of so much, deception and mixture. By the way, I'm glad you're wearing linen, because we're going to wear linen forever It says will wear linen garments, but it's not cross with wool. That's my degrees in textiles. Okay, I ended up I ended up the second year of high school. I ended up going to this vocational program that gave me a associate's degree, because I went into the textiles at Wayne State University and I, I made my own kids clothes and that kind of thing, but I didn't really. When I read that in the Bible, I understood it said, don't mix the linen with the wool. Yeah, because one is shrink. Yeah. And the, you know, the plant with the animal, you know, cross it. And so there is so much mixture and there's such a mixed message. And I hope that anything I said about the church music didn't offend you. It's just a struggle I have. No it was we. Our church only sings hymns and there's a piano and everybody sings together because it was like, again, coming from the East Coast, from Catholicism. I'd never heard worship music. We didn't listen to worship music like you mean modern stuff. Yeah. Or even like in the 90s. Like that was not that wasn't the norm in the East Coast, and it wasn't the norm of my family. So when I came here and, like, became a Christian and they would be like having, like a concert at church, like my mom would call it High School Musical, she'd be like, oh, you're going to the high School Musical church? And I'd be like, I can't stand it either. Like it's overwhelming and it's like it's confusing because it's like, I'm not sure that I don't want to be entertained. Yeah, we went to one Easter service. I remember, I think it was Hunter. Nice. First Easter Mary, and we missed our church. We went to the village that was run by like Matt Chandler by Matt Chandler, and the church would fill up so fast. Like if you didn't get there at least 30 minutes early, you wouldn't get a seat as members. So like, we didn't make the Easter service at our own church. So the, UNT University of North Texas, they have a coliseum, and there was this other really big church in town, and they would hold an Easter service at the Coliseum. Oh, wow. And so we're like, well, I guess we'll go there because it's literally the only place that has a seat available. And we went and they had Smoke Machine and like, it was like I was at the American Airlines Center. Like. Yeah, like like I might as well been there watching the Spice Girls again. And I was like, huh, huh what is going on here? Sometimes my husband and I make jokes about it, but really it grieves us. Yeah, he'll say it's the big screens, the skinny jeans and the smoke machine. It's the nickels, the noses. The numbers are the gold. The girls of the glory. You know, he'll say all that all at once, you know. But it grieves us. Yeah. Because that is. Is, making the body of Christ worldly. Yeah, that's what it feels like to me, though. Yeah.
Question: I wanted to get your opinion before I left. so yoga is something a few years ago when my mind was not open to it. So. Fine. I know about all the different organs. Anyway, I have been since the Lord revealed to me the truth behind it, and I'm no longer anywhere willing to touch that. But I have several people just in the past week and they go to my church, my, that are lifelong, like early childhood believers, like they've come up in the fads, all that kind of stuff, and they continue to grow. Yet they are just fine with yoga practices, all that kind of stuff. And how would you talk to somebody who maybe just doesn't know yet?
Answer: I've had many conversations about this subject, so I would love to hear that before I look for Stephen Bankers, who was the number one new age. Website for years. Stephen, Steve e NBA and c a r z. Stephen Bankers wrote a book called The Second Coming of the New Age, and he addresses this. And so someone really is seeking and wants to know. The other thing is that I've had foreign exchange students from India in my home. Yeah. And they were upset and appalled at the fact that the Americans had taken their religion of 300 plus gods and goddesses and men made a product out of it. Yeah, because to them it's their religion of Hinduism. Yeah. And the way it was explained to me by a 16 year old girl from India, I said, what's so upsetting about it? I want to know what you thought. She said, well, every single one of those poses is a holy, expression to that specific God. That's what the name of that pose means. And she said, that's like so upsetting to me that you take our religion and you sell it.
You make a product out of, you wear specific clothes and women and, you know, we've all been to, church and Bible studies where women are wearing less clothing. I mean, I grew up in the hippie mindset, okay? We still were not at church or anywhere else as Christian women showing our bodies to everyone. And so I'm that that, Yeah. It's time that you're spending mostly to for yourself. Yeah. Now we all need to stretch. I had to stretch this morning, every morning of my life. The older you get, the more you have to do it. Because if you don't do it, you won't be able to do your squats just to get something out of the cabinet. Yeah. So, you know, always that's another part of the discipline that is important to is that we must have spiritual disciplines. And I am never going to be buff. Okay, I'm not a bodybuilder or anything, but on my dryer I have these five, eight and £10 weights waiting for the dryer to be done. And I have, you know, someone I'm listening to or worship music or something. and I'm not going to spend an hour and a half at the gym, but I'm going to I still go to the gym, so I like to swim, but I, I'm going to do something to, you know, stretch and do that every morning. I have the ball and I do it, and I take long walks with my neighbors. just to keep the movement and the live, limber ness. You know, I love that, there's a difference. There's a difference between stretching. Yeah. Versus. So. Right. Yeah. Yeah, I know that some people that I've talked to who kind of have an idea of like just the background behind yoga, but then they said things to be effective. Okay. But our God is our only bodies. We don't No little deity gets to claim the way we. Of our bodies. And on one hand, yes, our God is sovereign and our God is above all other rulers, principalities, anything. However, that is, it's a religion that was designed specifically to give worship to these things. I think it's even more serious than that. What I have seen is that there are actual strongholds being built in the mind of that person, because you know that what is a stronghold is it's one thought, brick by brick, being built into these walls, a stronghold, a fortress that holds demonic entities so we can invite demonic entities into our thinking and mindset by advocating for that which is unholy. Yeah, yes, you're right. And it is hard. When you're thinking hard doesn't mean you don't talk about it, but it is hard thinking about talking about this with new believers because the people are coming to coming to my mind, the people that are new to the faith. Right? It's just been a part of their Yeah, it's not a big deal. Why are you making it overly spiritual? Right, right. So how to approach it in a way where it's like, okay. There's some stuff here that is overwhelmed, but then it's ultimately it's the spirit who would write. But if you could direct them to just look at you say, well, you know, I mean, you've got to make an argument. You go, well, I know someone who has. Yeah, quite a bit, you know, insight on this. You could just look it up on your phone, Stephen, Ben. And it'll pop up and you just look at yoga and just kind of learn about it and don't make it all out yourself. You have to come up with anything. Yes. That is I was doing. Yeah. For this conversation. Right, right. because the thing is, is unless they have the desire to and that is the question. The question is, do you want to say, what can I get away with? Yeah. Or do you want to say, holy, how the Levites had on their. Yeah. On a blazoned across her forehead with that hat it said Holy unto Lord. Yeah. And look at there's so many postures in the Bible. Yeah, about how we are to posture ourselves before a holy God and doing those poses, saying any of them I. It's all right. No no, no. It isn't grammatically correct, but you know what I mean. I've been all, Yeah, East Texas, but I'm rocking and fixing something. No, I'm so sorry. It's rubbing off on you. Come on, y'all. What up, all y'all?
Speaker 2: I used to be a yoga teacher. Oh, really? Yeah. Yeah. And then. And I stopped in 2019, and it was just kind of like. What were you doing? I used to be a yoga teacher. Oh, okay. And and it just kind of was like, you know, like, I really should just just look at it from the other side, right? Because, like, like I said, I'm a kinesiology, but I love fitness. So in my head, it was like I didn't do the chance. I didn't do the job. Yeah, I wasn't doing any of that. And like, when I became a Christian, when I was teaching yoga, like I would put on like worship music and I was teaching this at the university. Right. So I would I could play whatever I wanted, so I would play worship music. And then like when we were doing like the savasana, which is like when you're resting your body at the end, like I would just be praying and I would pray for everybody in the room, and I would pray for the rest of my day. And just like it was just like my time with the Lord. And, And then, yeah, I stopped and I would go on YouTube and I would like, look up testimonies of, like, Indians or like ex-New agers. And so just hearing their perspective, especially, like you said, Indians who were like, I had to give this up. It was really hard because that was my life. That was my worship. Now that I don't do it, I stick out like a sore thumb. And now I'm the outsider. And it's just and like, it's a, it's a it is a religious thing. Like. And I tell people I'm like, we wouldn't we wouldn't start wearing Mormon undergarments, right? Yeah. Like we wouldn't like all of a sudden be like, that's, well, Mormons do it. It's cute, fashionable, like, I'm gonna do it even though I'm not Mormon. No, like, they wear purity undergarments because they believe in. Right? Yeah. This affects their virtue. And, like, we would never do that, you know, like any other. Like we wouldn't start wearing a hijab like because we're not, we're not. We don't need to. Have that level. Like we wouldn't adapt those into our faith. So like, why do we make the exception for yoga?
Answer 2: It's cool, it's trendy. It's if you don't do it, you stick out like a sore thumb. How did it get here? How it got here through the Beatles, because they were veering off into going to India to, you know, had their guru and the Maharishi and those all those gurus were it was a proponent. And so because the Beatles were talking about this eastern religion stuff and Yoko Ono was talking about that, it became a trend. And then with it came Transcendental Meditation, which was really big in the early 70s. And that combined with the yoga and it's, it's a, it's a, It's like the, the elephant in the room, you know what I mean? Like, it's difficult to talk about because it's you know, your health. You know what I mean? Yeah. And we idolize our health here big time. Yeah. And do you know what the older I get. The more difficult it is around people my age, because that's all they want to talk about is their medications, their knee surgeries, all of this stuff interesting. And so they're consumed with it. It's becomes their identity. Yeah. And because of our, you know, the Medicare and all that, they think, well, I got insurance, I can get it for free and all this. Like what. Do you need it all that. You know what I mean. Like be careful with that. Yeah. You know moderation like don't go there first. But I was told by a lady who was 80 years old that the way to prevent your knees going bad was to kneel every day, because getting down and getting up from your knees, getting down on your knees, getting up from your knees. Interesting. Kneeling before the Lord. Wow. And we need to practice that because our I don't know what it'll be like in heaven, but in the word it says, angels cry Holy, holy unto the Lord. Holy is the Lord. You know there and there prostate there. They're bowed down. Yeah. I want to never lose that ability to bend down, to kneel down and get up from that. So just keep doing it.
